Letting Go: On Losing a Dog

One of the hardest aspects of our relationships with dogs is the great difference in our lifespans. When you open your heart to a dog, you do so knowing that you’re probably going to outlive him or her. The joy that dogs bring to our lives is worth the pain we feel at losing them, but oh, how awful that pain can be.

“If you have a dog, you will most likely outlive it; to get a dog is to open yourself to profound joy and, prospectively, to equally profound sadness.”

-Marjorie Garber

I think it’s worth it to acknowledge that losing a dog hurts. Whether your dog lived a long, happy life, was euthanized at a young age, or was lost tragically early due to an accident or illness, it hurts to let them go.

Sometimes we are given the enormous responsibility of making that difficult decision to euthanize. The empathy and selflessness required to say, “I understand that it hurts too much, and I love you enough to end that suffering” is enormous. Whether your dog’s suffering was physical or emotional, helping them to cross over when there’s no other option is never the wrong thing to do if it comes from a place of compassion.

Photo by Greg

Life without your canine companion is going to feel empty and raw for awhile. This is normal and healthy. Embrace the grief. It’s okay to feel sad. It’s hard to adjust to life without your dog when they’ve been a fixture in your life for any amount of time.

There are constant reminders that they’re no longer there, and it’s normal to keep poking at that raw and painful place that they used to fill up, the same way that your tongue keeps revisiting the socket where a tooth used to be. The empty dog bed, the silence when the mailman visits, waking up without the staccato accompaniment of that thumping tail… it will be difficult.

I came across a photograph of him not long ago… his black face, the long snout sniffing at something in the air, his tail straight and pointing, his eyes flashing in some momentary excitement. Looking at a faded photograph taken more than forty years before, even as a grown man, I would admit I still missed him.

– Willie Morris

Oftentimes the pain of grief can feel like a physical wound. Social distress (grieving) is processed in the same part of the brain as pain from injuries. Take care of yourself as if you just sustained a major injury or underwent surgery, because that’s what your body thinks just happened.

Do what helps: I find it’s helpful to write about my loss, but others find it more helpful to talk or to do volunteer work. Surround yourself with understanding and empathetic people. Make a memorial for your dog, if you wish. Plant a tree, sponsor a homeless dog at your local shelter, or bring freshly baked cookies to an adoption event for the volunteers.

At some point, grief does fade, although it never truly leaves us. You’ll find yourself smiling and laughing at memories of your dog instead of crying. Reminders of your dog’s happy moments will make you joyful instead of remorseful. Perhaps a new relationship will blossom with another dog, never replacing that which you had with your previous companion, but richer for the lessons that your old friend taught you. Each new dog benefits from the teachings of the ones who came before, and opening your heart to a new dog when the time feels right can be a beautiful tribute to the dog you lost.

There’s a stone I had made for Luke at the top of the hill road, where the pasture opens wide and the setting sun highlights the words carved into its face. “That’ll do, Luke, that’ll do.” The words are said to working dogs all over the world when the chores are done and the flock is settled: “That’ll do dog, come home now, your work is done.” Luke’s work is done too. He took my heart and ran with it, and he’s running still, fast and strong, a piece of my heart bound up with his, forever.

– Patricia McConnell
For the Love of a Dog

My heart goes out to my friends who have said goodbye to wonderful dogs recently. If you have lost a friend, what helped you get through the grief? What lessons did your special dog teach during their time with you? Please share your memorials in the comments below.

69 responses to “Letting Go: On Losing a Dog

  1. Great article. This article will hopefully help people experiencing the loss of a pet as well. http://www.funpawcare.com/2012/07/12/when-your-dog-dies/

  2. The heartache of loosing a dog is simply awful. This is a beautiful post and I’m sure it will mean a lot to hundreds of people.

  3. My little man J.C. was not only a dog but my son. I lost my baby boy but he went in peace. He touched our hearts like no other could do. I know he is now over the bridge playing and enjoying his time. I worry cause he was so dependent on me and got sick if I was not there. I pray he is well and someone is taking good care of him till we meet again. RIP little man mama loves you and always will.

    • I am so sorry for your loss I just lossed my boy 3 weeks ago, I know the pain you feel because I feel the same pain ,he was also a son to me I miss him terribly words can’t describe the pain that’s in my heart but I know one day I am going to meet my boy again and we are going to be together for ever and ever.

      • I know better then anyone about losing your beloved pet. I lost my doggy Buffy on July 27 and I still miss her. She was always there when I needed her. When I come home I wait for her bark. I was always amassed that she knew when I was coming out of my car and she would be at the door waking her tail.
        The only good think is that one day I’ll see her again.

  4. Loosing my first dog was very likely on of the most devastating things in my young life .To this day i have not had anything that hit me as hard as when Bandit was hit by a car .. Inspiring words Sara well done :)

  5. My friends were extremely supportive after I lost Sophie and Buddy this summer. I have a Rainbow Bridge tattoo on my back and am able to have it finished finally. It’s for all those who have crossed the Bridge; mine, friends’, strays, fosters and shelter pets.

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  7. How fitting, yesterday we let our 16-year-old toy poodle go to the Bridge. She was my big, strong husband’s heart dog and he was devastated but your blog came, he read it and asked me to make a copy for him. Thank you.

  8. Thanks for weighing in on our dilemma. Losing Luke was such sadness for our family. He was such a dear friend and companion. It has been more than a year. We’re ready to move forward!

  9. When my wonderful Berner was diagnosed with lymphoma I made a commitment to share one good thing about her on Facebook every day that she lived from that point. I called these posts 100 Good Things About Coretta. I only made it to about 30 before she died, but friends far and wide who never met her in person got a chance to know her, and it helped me to have a chance to share how special she was.

  10. I lost my Digby 18 months after he entered my life and my heart and my home. He was a medical mess but full of spirit and had a strong will to live in spite of everything this world had done to him. I knew on our first vet visit that he would break my heart but loved him regardless. We shared waking and sleeping moments while we were blessed to have them. He was close to me in ways that few other dogs have been. Digby has only been gone 25 days so the pain and grief is still strong intertwined with the absolute angst and heartache of making that last decision to let him go. He loved me and I loved him unconditionally and the loss is great. I know a day will come when the smiles will come more than the tears. Til we meet again my little baby boy, a joy to my life and living on in my heart.

  11. Beautiful Sara, thank you.

  12. Five yrs ago today I lost my beloved Chelsea at the age of 8 & it was the hardest loss I’ve ever felt until 43 days ago when I lost My precious Daisy she was very sick the past yr. & we had to do what we said we would never do & let her go. She died one day before her 15th birthday, she was truely the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life…she was my heart & I truely don’t know what I will do with out her, for the first time in 15 yrs I feel so alone I don’t think I will ever get over this loss! These two dogs were truely the best of the best & I thank them for loving me the way no other has, they each have taken a huge piece of my heart, a piece that will never be replaced. Momma loves you babies…always & forever xxxx

  13. Dee Dee Cowan

    I let go of my dearest, most beloved Scout three weeks ago today. He was over 13 and I knew he was too uncomfortable to enjoy life anymore. I just truly didn’t think he would ever die. Of course I knew he would but clung to a silly hope that he wouldn’t. It was just him and me the last two years of his life and they were the best. We just adored one another. I rushed home from work to be with him. I didn’t want to spend time away from him….I knew that it would be ending, sooner than later. Letting him go was so, so devastating. I am on a roller coaster of emotion these days. I still wonder if I did the right thing. My wonderful vet gently encouraged it so I know deep down it was the right thing to do. Somehow, this does not comfort me. I miss his company so much. His loveliness. He was so incredibly affectionate in his last years. Really gushy. I loved it. We had a wonderful relationship….so understanding and forgiving. I miss him beyond words.

    • Dee dee, your words perfectly describe the love i had for my dog from beginning to end. I wonder if I let go too soon, and three months later, I still wonder. My house just isn’t the same anymore and while some days are better than others, I know that you can’t rush grief. I fight the urge to not search for another puppy. It just isn’t the right time or the right thing to do. Hang in there and know in your heart that you knew your dog better than anyone and the humane decision is often the hardest decision.

    • Dee dee, never think that you did not do the right thing. You tore your heart out to prevent Scout from having to suffer. You made the ultimate sacrifice.

    • He is in your surroundings.
      I know when mine passed, I had too many coincidences to be ignored.
      I thank The good Lord the afterlife is but a bridge between here, the putting off the body suit and the afterlife.
      The tears and heart felt sadness is the bond of love that nothing can come in between that.
      The silence is your babies love in the other side looking at you.

  14. I received Sammie as a gift for my seventh birthday, and from that point on, he was my pal, my partner in crime, my cuddle buddy and constant ear. He listened to every complaint and frustration and exciting frivolous comment I had to give. Every morning, I would wake up to him bursting through my door and jumping on my bed to stand on my head and lick my face. Whenever we sang happy birthday, he joined in the last line howling at the top of his lungs! He was so full of life and excitement and joy; he made coming home an adventure. On May 27th of this year, I noticed a tiny infected cut on his lip that we later found out to be a rapid growing tumor. He had that removed, but the doctors noticed another tumor the size of a golf ball in his throat, so we had him put on steroids to help with the swelling. Throughout this summer, the swelling seemed to go down, and we thought he was going to be fine until last Sunday, he began throwing up infection. My mom felt his throat and was surprised by a lump that fit into her palm. We took him to the vet on Monday, and the doctor told us he was in terrible pain. We had no idea because he seemed perfectly normal and jubilant and happy! I have never felt so much pain in my heart like the pain I felt when I heard the news that they were going to put him down right then. It all just seemed to happen to fast. The doctors told us he was going to be okay. Its so unfair that my shadow of ten years is just completely gone. I cried and cried for the first few days. This week has been better, but literally everything reminds me of him- his toys, the smell of his food, his leash in the yard, his love for bananas, we also found the bottle of his steroid pills in the cabinet today and threw them out. I expect him to greet me at the top of the stairs when I get home from school. I don’t even know how to describe the way my heart hurts. My room is so empty without him. I feel sick not having to let him outside before we leave the house. I feel like I want to get another dog just for the sake of having another little companion, but then I feel like it’s completely dishonoring and disloyal to Sammie. I don’t know. I do know that as time goes on, the pain will ease, and I will move forward. It’s just terrible right now. :( I love and miss you, Sammie boy.

  15. When I bought my first house, I was finally ready to own my first dog.i bought a miniature schnauzer and visited her until she was fully weaned from her mother. I took her home 5 days after moving in my new home. It was our home. She belly bathed in the sunshine in the backyard and kept the squirrels in check about who lived in her outsoor space. She was beautiful and so, so smart. I learned how to groom her so she wouldnt have to go through the trauma of going ro the ‘beauty shop.’ I made organic food for her when i saw that she was becoming a finicky eater. She watched TV and waited patiently for an animal, any animal to appear on the screen so she could bark at it until it disappeared. We walked all over Austin. She developed a heart murmur which gradually worsened. Knowing this day would come, I didn’t expect it so soon. She was only 12 and It’s been almost three months since I let her go. I miss her everyday and I probably always will. I will never forget the joy and laughter she brought to my life. I love you piper and you will always be in my thoughts and in my heart until we meet again.Thanks for writing this article.

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  17. Danielle Bilodeau

    Today I will be ending my little coppers life. Oh how I ache inside. I feel like my life will never be the same again. He is 15 and a half years old. He was my son the son I never had. He has given me 15 beautiful years and I will miss him so. I am counting the hours and the minutes we have left. It’s just not fair. I only hope and pray that he forgives me for letting him go today. How do you say goodbuy to the best friend you ever had. I will love you forever copper son and I look forward to being with you again at rainbow bridge. Your owner who loves and will miss you xxx

    • Danielle I am reading this as I wait for another hour to do the same… my heart is in such pain. He is so uncomfortable and in pain so I know it is the right thing to do. The unconditional love and loyalty from my Murphy cannot ever be replicated by a human being… sheer devotion and I will miss him so much

  18. My dog, Sally died about 3 years ago at the age 11.
    I raised her alone from a puppy that entire time, and it was just the two of us.
    She had a long, happy life, and only in the last few weeks of her life she seemed to slow down, she had a few small seizures, but would get right back up like nothing happened.
    So when some random cold December Saturday she suddenly seized up and died in my arms unexpectedly, I was completely lost.
    It was such an unexpected shock.
    As a forty year old single man, I had never experienced the depth and torture of such grief in my entire life. Even with the loss of friends and family in the past.
    I couldn’t understand what was happening to me, I had never cried so much in my life compared to that first few weeks.
    I was so embarrassed to be a grown man crying over a dog, I hid it.
    I would feel it coming over me at work, and I would have to go outside and sob and dry my eyes so no one would know.
    It was a roller coaster of emotions, even weeks later I thought I was finally coming back to the surface and I would find one of her hairs on a coat and I would be crying again.

    I thought there was something wrong with me, it was just a stupid dog right?
    Why couldn’t I let go?

    But, it did get better, slowly, the main thing that helped me was about 3 months later some friends had a dog they could not keep and he needed a home, and I was finally ready to let another dog in my heart. (not as a replacement, but as his own dog)

    Here, three years later I still have him and I love him just as much as Sally, I still say goodnight to Sally as I pass her grave in the yard each night as I walk Arrow, but I don’t feel the pain anymore. The echos of the loss still are in me, and they have made me a stronger and deeper person.

    I’ve adopted two other needy dogs since then (and have been adopted by a cat too!) and I still have love to give, there is nothing wrong with me. Love for a dog is real and just as deep as for other humans, maybe even more sometimes.

    One of my dogs has been missing for three days now, and again that grief is tearing me apart, don’t know if he is alive or dead or if I will ever see him again. At least I know it wont last forever, grief will run it’s course, and life will come back again.

    • I lost my baby at only 4 years old. It was unexpected, I just woke up one morning and he wasn’t breathing well, rushed to the vet, and was told he had hole in his lung. As the vet tried to relieve the air in his chest he called us back and told us he was losing him. And we couldn’t do anything but beg him to stay and watch him go. I’m 31, and have no children. I feel like I lost my only child. His life was not less significant to me just because he was a dog. He was my whole world. My husband is in the military so it was just him and me all the time. I didn’t even work because I didn’t want to be away from him. Im completely heartbroken and unhappy. It’s been a little over two months and I just can’t move on. I feel like I’ll never get over this loss. I can’t imagine a day when pain won’t rule my life.

      • Hi there, I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope your doing better these days. The importance of your connection and loving bond you shared, was known by you & him both. As I read your story it stopped me to write. I understand the feeling of losing that part of you, it’s un bearable. My healthy, happy, amazing boy, died yesterday. Everything seemed to be fine then suddenly he started acting different so we rushed to the vet, a few mins later he was gone. Like you, I did not work outside the house bc I didn’t want to be away from My Everything who would have been 2 in August. I don’t want to be without him any longer. I feel like he’s lost somewhere searching for me or scared and feels like i have abandoned him. I’m lost and feel like I can’t continue without him. Still in shock and wondering if time really heals?

      • Hi jo, I’m so sorry you lost your baby, and my heart goes out to you. It was nice to get your reply and to feel a little less alone. I completely know how you feel, not wanting to go on, feeling like your life is hopeless now. And I also felt like my baby still needed me, and I needed to be with him. I still feel this way. Time will help. It’s not they way people tell you it is, you don’t let go or move on. You just learn to live with pain. It has been months since lost my boy, I still cry all the time, and will be heartbroken for as long as I live. I will never not miss him or want things to be different. I just try to get out of the house and distract myself. But it’s difficult, and takes every ounce of effort I can muster. I’m just hoping that time moves quickly until I can be with my baby again. Its not an ideal way to live, but distractions do make time move faster. So yes, time will help. You’ll never be the same, and surely our broken hearts will never heal. But time will pass, and everyday you are one day closer to your baby. I hope that you start to adjust. Please feel free to write again.

      • Hi jo, I’m so sorry you lost your baby, and my heart goes out to you. It was nice to get your reply and to feel a little less alone. I completely know how you feel, not wanting to go on, feeling like your life is hopeless now. And I also felt like my baby still needed me, and I needed to be with him. I still feel this way. Time will help. It’s not they way people tell you it is, you don’t let go or move on. You just learn to live with pain. It has been months since lost my boy, I still cry all the time, and will be heartbroken for as long as I live. I will never not miss him or want things to be different. I just try to get out of the house and distract myself. But it’s difficult, and takes every ounce of effort I can muster. I’m just hoping that time moves quickly until I can be with my baby again. Its not an ideal way to live, but distractions do make time move faster. So yes, time will help. You’ll never be the same, and surely our broken hearts will never heal. But time will pass, and everyday you are one day closer to your baby. I hope that you start to adjust. Please feel free to write again.

  19. I lost my old lab Dylan this afternoon. He was 14.5 and had recently been diagnosed with a cancerous tumour on his leg. He’s been struggling on but the pain and his mobility were getting worse. After an agonising week, we realised we had yo say goodbye and the vet came to our home earlier today. I feel I let Dyl down, he was quite snappy when the vet tried to inject him, and I’ll never forget the look on his face. I held him and stroked up and told him I loved him, but am so sad that he left me feeling scared, and I feel so guilty for ending his life. Bedtime now and he’s not here, nudging me for a treat before curling up on my feet. Saying goodbye is agony xx

    • I am so sorry for your loss Melanie. Dylan was a part of your life for so long and you must feel so different and sad without him. Choosing to end his suffering has to be one of the most difficult decisions you will ever make, but continuing to see him in pain may have been worse. You did what you felt was best for Dylan. I hope you find peace.

  20. Sara: Three and a half weeks ago, I had my beloved five and a half year old dog put to sleep for emotional problems. I adopted her almost four years ago, when she had already been given back to the shelter by two other adopters. I shed my first tears over her about two weeks after adopting her, when a trainer said, “It’s OK if you want to give her back to the shelter.” But, I couldn’t. I loved her already. For the next four years, I spent thousands of dollars on behavioral veterinarians, trainers, medications, and management ideas. I spent hundreds of hours on training and reconditioning protocols. And, my dog was never dangerous to others. Her problems were related to her own feelings of terror. But, when she wasn’t terrified, she was lovely, obedient, and sweet. She had many terrors, and for the first time in my life, I had an animal I could not calm with my skills or presence. For the last year of her life, she was with me literally 24 hours/day. I have never felt pain upon the loss of an animal in the way this loss is affecting me. I know that it is because of the ambiguity of the choice to euthanize. There was no tumor or disease or old age. There were still times of happiness. It was a choice I had contemplated for four years. I thought I was ready. I was wrong. I know enough about complicated grief to know that ambiguity in the relationship or circumstances of death can make grieving a more complicated process. I also know that there is a lot of judgment in the dog world about choosing to euthanize a young dog for emotional reasons, and there is a lot of assumption and judgment from some quarters about why any given dog owner is not able to train or “lead” their dog out of intense anxiety. I have been scouring the internet to find understanding and comfort for making a choice to euthanize a dog because of emotional difficulty. I cannot tell you have thankful I am to have found this one sentence, and I encourage you to use your blog to offer more in-depth support for this type of grief/loss. The sentence is: Whether your dog’s suffering was physical or emotional, helping them to cross over when there’s no other option is never the wrong thing to do if it comes from a place of compassion. Thank you.

    • Oh Robin, so glad to have found your post. I can so relate. I as well made a choice to euthanize my 2 year old dog due to his anxiety. I believe it to be one of the hardest decisions in my family’s life. We adopted him from a breeder and noticed early on he was different – he would pace non stop, constantly would whine, and would run and hide in terror if I picked up anything (or vacuumed, or even touched the vacuum cleaner). I am not sure if it was genetics or if something happened to him in his first 8 weeks, but his anxiety and terror was severe to the point that he could hardly ever relax. When he did though, he was the sweetest, gentlest soul, my buddy. Our family tried to rehome him, but being a hunting breed, it was difficult with no luck, to find the right home. Additionally, he could not hunt well, got distracted during his hunting rounds and so the outlook was not good. There was no way I would leave him at a shelter, to sit for months in a cage with his condition, only to be adopted, and then most likely put back again in a shelter, to live a lonely misplaced life of being a homeless dog. We tried other options with behavioral training, but it just got to the point that it was too much to bear.
      I tell myself now that he lived the best life that a dog could possibly live. He pushed beyond his troubles to be as happy as he could when he could, he was strong, never aggressive and kind. It wasn’t his fault the troubles that haunted him and his heart was pure gold. In the times he was calm, he would take take a deep breath and put his chin on my shoulder. Although his life was short, it was a beautiful happy life filled with great memories. Our dogs do not have a concept of time – of days, of weeks, like we do. They live in the moment and it’s the moments that matter most and what we also remember. I tell myself again, that because I loved him so much, it would be better to end his life, his emotional suffering, with the family who never ever stopped loving him. Our love was unconditional and one day when I am ready I will put up a picture of him I took on his last day, running in the sunshine.

  21. I lost my beautiful doggy Buffy on July 27 2016. Before I adopted her she was kept in a crade only to be taken out to breed, then put back in. When I first saw her I knew we were ment to be together. She died suddenly I will always wonder why. I gave her medicine because she was throwing up then I put her down on the rug and she died.People say the medicine didn’t kill her that she had to have something else wrong with her but I will always feel if I didn’t give her Bebto Bismo she would still be alive. I wish I would of kept her home longer before taking her to the vet after she died. I wear a necklace with some of her ashes, sometimes this makes me feel better but other times it makes me feel guilty. I even put her urn where she liked to sleep. I wish I was like some of you who know what your dog died of I never will.
    I promise you Buffy I will never get another dog. I love you so much.

  22. We lost Nibbles our beloved poodle on 09/30/2016 and I am still grieving I miss him so much.

  23. I lost my dog Buffy on July 27 and I still miss her. People tell me to get another dog but I don’t think I’ll ever get another. Dogs are not just animals (pets) there just like our children. I wear a necklace with her ashes around my neck. I also keep a stone by a tree that she liked laying by.

  24. Hi, I am sending my 15 year old dog Sophie to the Rainbow Bridge this afternoon. She has been my loving friend for so long and I cannot imagine how I am going to get through without her. But she is suffering, even though her tail still wags! My heart is breaking but I know it is the best decision for her. Run quickly to the Bridge, my beautiful Sophie, I will meet you there one day. Xxxxx

    • Chris, I feel with you it is an emptiness beyond understanding….

      • evamcrae001@mac.com

        We went through what you are going through now on October 31 2016.
        We still feel as you do but I do not cry as often I talk to friends and family about all the love he gave us through out his life accepting us. Nibbles or toy poodle was his name and he will always be in our hearts. It will get easier day by day. There is not a time table to end your grieving.

  25. Just yesterday we had to let Kaylee, our compassionate companion for more than 12 years go. her health problems worsened and it was the hardest thing to go to the vet for a last time…it feels awful…although the right thing to do as she was in pain. She was a corgi basset mix and like a teddy bear…we are in deep mourning and we only take it by the day for now..we know she is well and also free of pain crossing the Rainbow Bridge. We will find her in the near future because that’s what we feel will happen. To a wonderful spirit and unconditional love. We see you again…

  26. Its coming up on a year in march of losing my sweet maggie. She was the most beautiful black lab ive ever seen, in my opinion, perfect in every way. She even had little patches of long hair on each of her sides that I always called her angel wings. Not ever imagining I would have to say goodbye to her at age 10. Ive lost many other dogs in the past that I was very close to but they were 13, 14, and 15 but have never hurt nearly as much. I had no idea she was sick and 2 weeks later, gone. And one of those she spent in the hospital. But I visited every day. I am almost 50 and have no children. My dogs are my children.I still am grieving as if it just happened, and cant get over it. It has not gotten any better, and it seems so hard to believe that its Almost a year ago. I still want her back so bad! She trusted me so, so dearly to take care of her and make her safe and I feel I failed her miserably.

  27. we loss our dog wednesday we had to have him put to sleep his heart was failing him,our dog taught me to love to trust and I’m empty the whole flat is a reminder of my love for him I’m miserable I want to see him one more time I thought I had grieved b4 but no I haven’t it so painful he was my baby .

    • Hi Mandy,

      I’m feeling your pain. It’s a pain like nothing else. I can’t believe the rainbow story etc and that time heals or you will feel better in a few days. The pain is raw and nobody can make you feel any better.

      • it’s been three weeks now and I’m still tear full I keep thinking his here and I find myself talking to him I miss the cuddles I miss get up to do his breakfast it a whole in my heart I love him so much it’s getting better thanks time your repile was comforting and straight to the point I appreciate that

  28. We had to say goodbye to our precious girl Holli Jayne just 4 days ago. We had her for only 10 short years from the age of 6 weeks. Our little tough Cookie had lymphoma which was diagnosed 3 months ago and we opted for chemo, which she received weekly. The lumps started shrinking but she then developed pneumonia and she was gone😭within 3 days. One consolation is that we didn’t see her pass, as i couldn’t have dealt with having to say goodbye…Hol went when she was ready to and nobody was going to tell her what to do…which was exactly what she was like…an independent puppy…we used to call her this all the time.
    I keep seeing her around the house and it really hurts. I had to move her bed into another room away from my husband and my room, where she slept for the whole of her life. We didn’t want her apart from us, after all she was our baby.
    It’s day 4 and I have cried so many tears, tears that I thought couldn’t be cried anymore. I feel sick to the stomach at the thought of not seeing my little Black Beauty ever again and i worry that she didn’t want to leave us and she will be alone in her search to find her mum and dad, as she didn’t like other dogs…I think she believed she wasn’t a dog herself!
    I just want to know that she is ok and not heartbroken like her mummy. X

    • it’s been three weeks since we lost our black beauty Jackson he was our baby and I too had thought that he might be cold and that he was missing us and the flat is empty but I believe that time is the healer I’m sorry for yr lost I completely know how you feel my Jackson taught me how to love it will never forget him his in my heart and soul.

  29. Tonight I lost the one true love of my life..my maddie. She was with me for almost 14 years. We found each other on the Internet. .she was a shelter dog..I just went through a horrible divorce where my preteen son wanted to live with his dad after the first year on our own. I needed some kind of purpose someone to take care of and love and there was thay fuzzy face maddie on perfinder.com. I went to visit her every day of the week sneaking in treats for her when I would walk her during my lunch hour so she we like me better than any others that were interested in her. A few days later I got the call that she is mine if I want her. I left work and picked her up that day. It was snowing and she needed a haircut. I took her to the vet first then the hair salon and then to the pet store to get all her new things. I laid my coat down in the shopping cart so she would be comfortable and then tool her to her new home with her new mommy. We lived a happy life together. She was with me through it all..often detecting when I was sad..she would get on top of me and her paws on my shoulder and licked my face until my tears of sadness turned into uncontrolable laughter. God I lived her. She was every thing to me. The absolute love of my life. I hope to see you again soon Maddiegirl. Mommy loves you.

  30. I lost one of my two dog’s today, Jake, suddenly, and reading comments from others does help me try and come to terms with a sudden loss my heart cannot comprehend. My heart is so broken just like everyone else’s that I could not function today no matter how I tried. The world just seems to stop.

    If you open your heart and life to animals you will appreciate and love all the animals that come into your life, they are all so special, unique and just pure love. I have had some very special four-legged friends over the years and have found time lessens the heavy heart and unbearable loss which I cannot escape now.

    To love again is better than to close a heart, and there are so many animals that need a loving home. I have always brought home shelter dogs or rescued them and each one has been so very special to me. People and pets can and do form bonds just as strong as any human relationship. Please don’t let any remarks from people bother you that say it was just a dog or cat, they just haven’t experienced that type of love and loss to know better.

    All pets in your life came here to be with you (they chose you), and just as we all have our time to depart this world so it is the same with them.

    Animals are pure spirit = love. There is truly something special that touches us when we experience unconditional love, and I believe this is why we love our animals so much. The fact that dog spelled backwards is God is not a coincidence.

    I loved my Jakey with all my heart, just like all my dogs, and he knew it. I loved that I had the opportunity to share a part of my life with him, and life will just not be the same. Maggie my other dog is missing him and together we will just take it one day at a time. I wouldn’t have traded all the days and love shared for anything, even though my heart is so broken today. Love you Jake you old boy…

  31. Jack was our boy, and he loved us with all of his big, wild heart. Surely, he lights up the heavens now. To say I miss him strains the use of the words.

  32. Templa Davis

    Thank you so much for this beautiful article. I’ll admit it doesn’t help lol but it’s a good reminder that i have done this before. I’m getting ready to loose 2 of my dogs very close together due to age and I have already started my grieving, although I do pull myself back into the moment to enjoy the time we have left. I can’t thank you enough!

  33. My buddy was the world to me he was my best friend ever and i miss him so much it hurts every day

  34. I said goodbye to my Gibson at a month over 16yrs old. He was a specal maltipoo. Got him at 8 weeks old.
    A quiet fella until we got him home. He turned into a very vocal loving smart play play play child of mine.
    He had his stubborn moments, but I adored him.
    He was so thankful when we went running in the park. I would chase him and he would throw himself against me and roll around.
    He got tired at age 15 and had a kidney issue. It failed him finally and he was dying in front of me. Thankfully we were close to 24 hr vet in Vancouver and it was a sunny day and in a sunny room, they administered his final goodbye as he was cradled in his mama’s arms. My heart was so sad. He was cremated at until we meet again and from private cremation to cremation witness it was peaceful. The Lord’s peace was there.
    The really bizarre thing is the night of his passing, I couldn’t sleep and he barked 3 times around 11:30am, I recognize that bark of take me out.
    The 2 nights after, I was weeping crazily in the washroom and wow wow wow, a small white feather appeared to the left of me, I was like huh.
    The next day I took a walk with his collar in my hands and at the end I looked upwards and said: I release you Gibson, and wow I looked down at my feet and there was another white feather bigger than the one I first found..
    To all you owners: there is an afterlife and the lil sweets do stick around until we let go.
    One more thing. 2 weeks before he passed.
    I got this dream of a huge plush green field and what looked like an older person tending the field, and a small dog looked like the outline of an electrical field came up and kissed my hand and ran off. I was standing at a fence that was between me and field. Cool stuff or what.
    Anyhow I am human and cry crazily for him gone.
    I really think though, I need to smile that I had the blessing of Gibson my baby love for 16yrs and one month.
    See you sweet Gibson. Later.

    • Hi Jim, What a beautiful story of sweet Gibson. 16 years is a long time, I am sure he was so lucky to have you. I really enjoyed reading your story. I also too believe our dogs give us signs from the next life. On the day my dog passed about 5 weeks ago I took him for a morning walk and he saw a wild rabbit and barked at it. 10 days afterwards I went with my other dog to the same spot, thought about my dog who who passed and the same rabbit then appeared not too far off.

      • Hello Claire. Thank you.
        Yes. Your baby was thinking about you also when the rabbit appeared at the same time you were in thought also. The dimensions we live in and reality is such an amazing mystery and is constantly played out in connection when love is strong. I am in awe of God’s world. I know our furbabies have souls and I wonder if they see more clearly when we are in thought about them and can reach out through the thin veil and kiss us with their love with signs and visitations.

    • I have to agree Jim, love has to be the greatest force of all. I haven’t visited in awhile, it has been 3 months now. Hope you are coping alright along with anyone else reading this thread. I found another tiny feather on my desk on the 3 month mark. It had a slight tinge of brown on it, just like the shade of my sweet baby boy. Still trying to find peace but getting better and just taking it day by day.

  35. Hi, yes finding the feather was his soul saying hi. how interestingly the time you replied to me was my 3rd month also since I said goodbye.
    I just finished taking my memorial walk of the places my Gibson enjoyed. Awhile ago, I was taking some stuff out and was thinking about Gibson, as I was coming back inside there was something stuck to my hand, I pulled it off me and it was a happy face. I so laughed, I knew right then he was happy and wanted me to not be sorrowful.
    Last night, I awoke out of a deep sleep and heard a gentle stream on my room and then heard a small girl laughing and playing with Gibson.
    I somehow had an interaction with the spirit world and knew he was happy and had a play friend who passed on.
    The body passes but the soul of the innocent goes to God’s field.
    I placed my faith in Jesus years ago, who said he is the resurrection and life.
    I have had incredible manifestations to his power and the mysterious world of the spirit realm where he rules.
    I remember I placed Gibson into his care for the after life and the feathers are a sure sign our dogs are in the angels presence.
    I know since he is the creator and cares so much that he died to remove death, he loves to give life.
    You are right about Love being the strongest force.
    I remember the word that says for God so loved the world.
    Choices created the ruins But God repairs and restores.
    God surely adores dogs, they are just so like his nature, gentle, loving, faithful, innocent and joyful.
    You will have peace, your baby put off his body but his soul is living.
    I too have to embrace that, with all the visitations, time to smile and sing a song out loud to the furbabies.

  36. Robert.
    Reading all these posts is comforting-the grief of having to put my dear Golden of five years to sleep is overwhelming. Been through it before,
    but it never gets easier does it. I found a poem on line that has comforted
    me a lot, because it is so relevant to what we go through at this sad time.
    Look up “If it should Be” on Google. (Author Unknown, but it’s bang on.)

  37. Jim will always cherish his Gibson

    If it should be
    If it should be that I grow frail and weak
    And pain does keep me from my sleep.
    Then will you do what must done
    For this – the last battle – can’t be won.

    You will be sad I understand
    But don’t let grief then stay your hand
    For on this day, more than the rest
    Your love and friendship must stand the test.

    We have had so many happy years
    You wouldn’t want me to suffer so
    When the time comes, please let me go.

    I know that in time you will agree
    It is a kindness you do to me
    Although my tail its last has wagged
    From pain and suffering I have been saved.

    Don’t grieve that it must now be you
    Who has to decide this thing to do
    We’ve been so close – we two – these years
    Don’t let your heart hold any tears.

    ~ Author Unknown ~

  38. I stumbled on your page as my 7 years old little Cotton lay down beside me breathing heavily, is in pain and just totally immobilized. I am at a stage of confusion. Not knowing what is right or wrong for my Cotton. The selfish part in me refused to let her go. But the sane part in me think otherwise. I know that its time to end her suffering and know that I need to deal with it. C’est la vie. Life’s like that. The one left behind always suffered the most. That raw, emotional roller coaster is too painful to go through. But deep in my heart, I know my Cotton will be happier and roam around painless over the rainbow.

  39. Frances Moreno

    Hi I just lost my beloved dog Jessie yesterday and I have to say it’s been very painful sad everywhere I go in my home I think off him I had him for 12 years he was the best dog so good. I miss him so much. I can’t stop crying it hurts I feel that I had to do this. To my angel in heaven I love you. You where the best. Mom

    • Hi. The deep part will eventually subside.
      Their souls still sticks around for awhile.
      When I lost mine. He made appearances after. Especially during the pain. They are precious and their love is God approved. You are not alone

  40. robert taylor

    I know how you feel: the loss is devastating because such creatures that are so beloved in our lives leave us in tears when they leave us. It does take time, you’ll have better days again eventually. Just grieve as you must
    -it is a natural process, in time I hope you’ll let the happy memories drown out the sorrow you have in your heart now. Perhaps one day, in the future you may let another dear soul who needs you fulfill the space your loved left
    for another of his kind.

  41. My dog died on March 5 of this year,he had cognitive disorder,(Alzheimer’s) Mickey was a jack Russell terrier .he was my child,my life I can’t stop crying,everyday I think about him .I had to euthunize him it was aweful I’ve put myself in personal hell for that.but he was not a dog anymore,he would forget how to drink or eat or to go to the bathroom .I miss him and it’s crippled me.

    • I love my Gibson

      After a year looking back. It really seems like, a major part of you shuts down. Your precious Still exists on the after life. After many visitations, signs etc. I am a believer. When you aren’t looking, he will reach out and send his love admitted by the Good Shepherd, The Lord.
      Cry, be still. Pray. Speak out loud to him.
      Receive the strength to stand up and smile that you shared a precious timeframe with a fur person, who could teach humans how love is done. It really does get healed over time. Your love and a part of you went over to the other side. It does really hurt.
      I guarantee, he will send love notes in different ways for you to endure and eventually celebrate your lil baby’s life and time you had.
      The breath of life is given to every living being and then that breath must leave the body to wear a afterlife body. You are not alone.

    • Dana,
      It takes time- sometimes a long time. The grief on losing your loved one
      is shared by so many of us who have been through it. I lost my
      seven year old Golden last December and I still think of him every day
      -sometimes a tear will flow. But knowing that his suffering ended with
      that so necessary compassionate ‘letting go’, the vet’s final merciful visit- gradually brings comfort.
      I hope one day you’ ll open your heart to another needing soul who awaits you. Somehow that he or she will surely find you.

  42. I had to say goodbye to my beautiful PHOEBE GIRL on November 4 2019 I was blessed every day I was given to share with her .she came into my life and gave me joy and unconditional love , she was my life for almost 16 years now I just can’t imagine the life without her. It hurts so bad it feels like my heart has been ripped from my chest, I stayed by she side as I said goodbye praying she would forgive me for doing this .I told her I loved her and thanked her for all the love and joy she gave me , I want her here with me so bad I can’t breathe , I can’t stop crying for her the house is so empty it’s not home any more. I told her every day how much I love her and would call her ” PHOEBE GIRL and tell her she was mommy’s girl ” on my birthday last year she wasn’t feeling good so took her to the emergency vet they found a tumor on her liver , her vet did everything he could but her little body was so tired and my little girl hung on as long as she could I know she loved me as much as I love her and as much as it broke my heart I could not let her suffer because I didn’t want to let her go . She’s my phoebe girl and she would always come first. Rest my beautiful little soul you will always be in my heart , thank you for choosing me to love and to share our lives together. I will see you again my beautiful little girl.

  43. We lost our beautiful girl Phoenix 12/8/19 at 11:00 a.m. Phoenix was 10yrs old&the Love of my life. She was so full of life always happy&loved us unconditionally as we loved her. I feel lost &cry most of the day. It was a sudden sickness that took her,she was fine ate her dinner an hour later I noticed her belly was 4 times the size got her to the vets office where we already knew it was twisted stomach (bloat) she made it through surgery,went to visit with her Saturday morning & she was out if it,couldn’t stand up,just layed thought it was from the pain meds,veterinarian said her kidney level’s were up,and he didn’t understand what was going on all her test were good,then out of know where she started to have a seizure,they got that under control,started glucose &antibiotics around the clock,kept running test on her(btw the veterinarian was amazing he was with our girl from Friday evening until sunday & they had a veterinary technician with her at all times) got a call Saturday night he said shed was making improvements chest sitting &looking around very alert he checked on her&did blood work but her kidney level’s kept going up,we went in Sunday morning and our girl was again laying about an hour later she started to whimper in pain,her 1 eye looked funny we had to make the gut wrenching heartbreaking decision to let her go,I asked her if she was ready to run,she just looked at me,the medicine they use he didn’t even get all of it in&she was gone..I miss my girl&I pray she forgives me for not trying harder the what ifs&whys,did I do the right thing ect. I still have her bed,pillows,covers,toys,robe&snow toboggan in our bedroom where she slept we’ll be bringing our girl home Friday we had her cremated and I’ll put her on her bed,there she’ll remain till our time has come.. As I so often called her my Million Dollar New York Girl that’s where we got her but live in Wva. I Love U my Phoenix Girl Till We Meet Again ♡

    • Jim loves Gibson

      It’s been over a year since I made the choice to say goodbye.
      Or is it the choice of the one who passed on.
      You mentioned the look in one eye.
      I remember looking at my love when he was close to depart and for the first time his eye looked empty.
      I later realized he was already leaving.
      The other side is life.
      The event of saying until we meet again is sacred and mysterious, as our souls thread in the afterlife when our loves are departing. He will visit you when the time is right.
      The soul and heart tear and tears are real and the healing process is there, since you loved him so much. You loved your fur baby very much and no more can be asked.

  44. I recently lost my 12.5 year old dog and it has been one of the most difficult things I’ve ever been through. She started showing signs CV if being sick rather quickly and the doctor diagnosed her with pancreatitis. After two weeks of antibiotics, weight loss and no appetite, another trip to the vet revealed devastating news: liver cancer which was also in her spleen and abdomen filled with fluid. We made the only decision we knew which was to put her to sleep. My husband and I were both with her but I was “her person.” It has been a little over a week ago that we said good bye and it’s still so hard. She was like a child to me. Prayers for anyone and everyone who has traveled this sad road🙏

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